The Mother

Some Visions and Experiences of the Mother

Q: Yesterday when the Mother came down in the evening to give Darshan, I saw her face shining with crimson light like the sun in the early morning. What is the meaning of crimson light?

A: Crimson light indicates the manifestation of love in the material atmosphere.

5-6-1933

Q: Today while meditating in the Pranam Hall before the Mother came down, I saw in a vision that from a high place the Mother was descending wearing a rosy-coloured sari and having a "Divine Love" flower in her hair. What is the significance of this?

A: It is a symbol of the descent of Divine Love.

5-6-1933

Q: Two days back I saw in a dream that I was lying in a bed in a room and the Mother entered with a rosy-coloured horse. Seeing the horse I told the Mother that he would bite me but the Mother replied that he would not do so. What is the meaning of this dream?

A: Rose is the colour of psychic love―the horse is dynamic power. So the rosy-coloured horse means that the Mother was bringing with her the dynamic power of psychic love.

3-8-1933

Q: Today while meditating in the Pranam Hall I saw that from a sky filled with blue light a beautifully-paved

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path was coming down on earth and the Mother was slowly descending on this path. The Mother's entire body was of white and golden light which was spreading out on all sides. When the Mother reached the end of the path and came down on earth her body got mixed with the earth. Then I suddenly woke up from meditation. Was this a vision? What does it signify?

A: Yes, it is a vision from the plane of mind (not ordinary, but higher mind). It indicates the descent of the Mother with the light of purity and Truth (white and golden) into Matter.

5-8-1933

Q: Two days back I saw in a dream that the Mother was standing on a high place and before her there was a pillar with the Tulsi plant on it. What does it signify?

A: That she has brought down and planted Bhakti, I suppose.

5-6-1933

Serpents are energies―those of the vital are usually evil forces and it is these that are usually seen by people. But favourable or divine forces are also imaged in that form, e.g., the Kundalini Shakti is imaged in the form of a serpent. Serpents turning over or round the Mother's head would rather recall the Shivamurti and would mean numberless energies all finally gathered up into one infinite energy of which they are the aspects.

28-10-1936

Q: I had a dream in which I saw that the Mother was near me. Once when she smiled, I felt as if I saw all the worlds in her mouth, as Jasoda saw them in Krishna's

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mouth. Immediately after seeing this, I felt myself lifted up above the world and looking at it as a free witness. Was this a real dream-experience and did I really see the Mother, or was it some other influence?

A: I don't think it was another influence. It reads like a very genuine experience.

19-6-1935

Q: While looking at the Mother when she came on the terrace, I suddenly saw in her lap a baby whom I took to be Jesus Christ as it resembled his figure. The vision lasted for about a minute and I saw it with open eyes. Could it be true?

A: It may be so―as Jesus was the child of the Divine Mother.

25-11-1933

You seem to have ascended into a plane of the Higher spiritualised Mind with a descent into it of Maheshwari bringing the power of the Divine Truth. The result in the physical consciousness was a perception of the One Consciousness and Life in all things and an illumination of the cells of the body with golden light of the higher Truth.

October, 1933

Q: Last night I saw in a dream that from the Mother's body light was coming into my body and transforming it. Both these bodies were longer than the physical bodies and were of a shadowy colour like that of stones. What does this signify?

A: Good, it is the opening of the physical consciousness to the

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Mother. It was probably the subconscient physical that you saw―that would explain the shadowy character―the stone indicates the material Nature.

30-9-1933

Q: Recently I notice that before the Mother comes down from the terrace in the evening she stands there for a long time. I feel that at that time she gives us something specially, so I concentrate to receive and feel what she gives. But this evening suddenly I saw (when I was concentrating by looking at her) that her physical body disappeared,―there was no sign of her body, as if she were not there. Then after a few seconds her figure reappeared. I felt at that moment that she mixed with the ether and became one with all things. Why did I see like this?

A: The Mother makes an invocation or aspiration and stands till the movement is over. Yesterday she passed for some time beyond the sense of the body and it is perhaps this that made you see in that way.

29-8-1932

Q: Today while meditating in the Pranam Hall I saw in a vision that the Mother was absorbed in deep concentration. Why did I see her like that?

A: The Mother is always in a concentrated consciousness in her inner being―so it is quite natural that you should see like that.

5-6-1933

Q: It was in sleep or meditation, I don't remember. I

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was approaching the Mother with a dish of various flowers. Before making my Pranams I offered her three flowers of "Divine Love". Has this any correspondence with my Sadhana?

A: It is not quite clear what this number 3 means in this connection. Possibly it is the aspiration for the Divine's Love in the three parts of the being.

12-7-1936

Q: I saw the Mother in the colour of the flower "detachment". Does it have any meaning?

A: It must mean that that was the force which she was offering to you or else which you needed from her.

10-1-1934

Q: The Mother sitting on the peak of an icy mountain; a narrow path leads there and I am gradually advancing towards that.

A: This is simply a symbol of the purity and silence of the higher consciousness which has to be reached by the path of Sadhana. The mountain symbolises the difficulty because one has not to slip to one side or the other, but go straight.

Q: Let me tell you what happened during my noon nap. I was on the lap of the Mother. She had put her transforming palm on my head. With her thumb she was pressing or rather opening the Brahmic centre of my head. I began to feel as if something were received from there. Then all on a sudden there was a shifting of the consciousness

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into some other world. A supraphysical light was experienced in the cells of the body which was already flooded with the light. The physical itself was taken up. Will you please explain this phenomenon?

A: There is nothing to explain. It was what you describe: At once the raising of the consciousness to a higher plane and the descent of that into the physical.

5-9-1934

Q: Over my head I see a plane of infinite and eternal Peace. The Mother is the Queen of this plane. From there I feel a ceaseless glow coming down towards me. It first touches my higher being and passes through it without any resistance. But on its way downwards its flow narrows to a small current which passes through the Brahmic hole. How do you find this description?

A: That is quite correct. In many however it descends in a mass through the whole head and not in a current through the Brahmic hole.

13-2-1936

Q: The Mother sitting on her seat. A cobra with many hoods behind her covering the head. It has a shining golden colour; in the centre of each hood a shining red round spot.

A: The cobra is an emblem of Nature-Energy; golden=the higher Truth-Nature; many hoods=many powers. Red is probably a sign of Mahakali power. The cobra covering the head with its hoods is a symbol of sovereignty.

23-1-1937

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Q: I see a rough rock. The sunlight falls upon it and the figure changes: in the centre a hollow circle is made and rocks arrange themselves round the circle. In the centre of the circle appears a stone image of Shiva about two feet high; afterwards from this image of Shiva emerges the Mother. She is in meditation. The sunlight falls just behind the Mother's body. What does it signify?

A: Rocks=the physical (most material) being.

An opening in the material making room for the formation of the spiritual consciousness there.

Stone image of the Shiva=the realisation of the silent Self or Brahman there (peace, silence, wideness of the Infinite, purity of the witness Purusha).

Out of this silence emerges the Divine Shakti concentrated for the transformation of the material.

Sunlight=Light of Truth.

12-10-1936

Q: The other day you asked me to be conscious in trance; I tried it hard and this is the result: I saw a Holy Woman entering a place where a few of the Sadhaks were assembled for her Darshan. She went into a closed room where we were to go one by one. I noticed that everyone was allowed one or two minutes as is done on our Darshan days. My turn was last.

In the centre of the room the Holy Woman was seated wearing simple clothes. Without looking at her face I put my head on her lap. She placed her hands on my head and caressed me softly, meanwhile murmuring to herself something like "Let him have..."; the last word of the sentence I had caught quite distinctly then, but cannot recollect now. It was the name of some spiritual power. No sooner had she said this, I felt a sudden rush of that power entering through my head.

After a few seconds she uttered the name of another

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power. This power knocked me with a tremendous force―it was shattering in its intensity.

After a while I raised my head and looked at the Holy Woman for the first time. Her face appeared like the Mother's. Then I told her, "May I ask you a question?" She did not seem to like this, but as she had not refused, I repeated the question. This time she said, "I don't like questions." (I wanted to inquire about her two gifts of different powers conferred on me.) Then I don't remember what I said. After a long time we both came back to consciousness, for we had both entered into a trance together. We knew it only when we asked the door-keeper how much time we had spent together. Afterwards I told her, "You must have entered into a trance and I simply followed you."
This whole phenomenon is beyond my understanding.
1) Who was the Holy Woman?
2) Why did she grant me the gift of her powers?
3) A trance within a trance! This is something new!

A: Obviously the Holy Woman was the Mother herself in a supraphysical form. It was natural that she should not like questions―the Mother does not like mental questions very much at any time and least of all when she is giving meditation as she was doing in this experience. It is rather funny to ask "why" (your eternal why) higher powers should be given. People do not question the gifts of the Shakti or demand reasons for her giving them, they are only too glad to get them. Trance within trance of course, since your Sadhana was going on in the trance, according to the ways of trance. It is also in this way that it can go on in conscious sleep.

Q: Whilst I was having a nap in the afternoon, I had a vision of a very beautiful woman sitting under the sun. The rays of the sun were either surrounding her or were emanating from her body―I can't precisely say

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which. The appearance and dress seemed to be more European than oriental.

A: It is not a woman. A woman does not radiate and is not surrounded by rays either. Probably a Sun Goddess or a Shakti of the inner Light, one of the Mother's Powers.

20-12-1935

Q: X told us today that the Mother was trying to bring down the personality of Durga on the Puja day.

A: There was no trying―it came down.

Q: When I came for Pranam, the Mother's appearance made me feel that she was Durga herself. I don't know whether such a feeling arose out of the association with the Puja on that day, or quite independently of it.

A: All that is the silliness of the physical mind which thinks itself very clever in explaining away the inner feeling or perception.

Q: These feelings are so vague and momentary, and not accompanied by a concrete vision.

A: What else do you expect the first touches to be!

Q: To give you one instance: I heard as if the Goddess Bhagawati were telling me, "I am coming" and many other things which I don't remember now.

A: These things are at least a proof that the inner mind and vital are trying to open to supraphysical things. But if you belittle it at once the moment it starts how can it ever develop!

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Q: I have started concentrating in the heart now. Last Sunday while I was meditating I had the vision of your face floating before me for about an hour or so, accompanied by a deep joy. I was fully conscious, but the body became utterly numb. Has anything in me opened up? Is all this the fulfilment of the promise given by Bhagawati?

A: It looks like it. At any rate there is evidently an opening in the heart-centre or you would not have had the change or the vision with the stilling of the physical consciousness in the body.