Songs from the soul

Sincerity

Afflicted by the sorrows of the world we earnestly pray for the Divine; but when the Divine comes to us we hesitate to accept it— such is the falsehood and contradiction in our earthly nature!

The central being in us aspires to the divine life, but the different parts passionately cling to the earthly life, and obstinately refuse to give up the old ways and the old habits. We seek to open us to Thee, Mother, but ourmind brings in all sorts of rambling thoughts, which veil Thy presence from us. We seek immortal joy, yet our senses persistently pull us towards the poor, mixed, limited pleasures of the earth. We pray for heavenly light, but when it comes to us we fail to recognise or accept it. Thus, our life becomes a curious mixture of truth and falsehood, of light and darkness, of joy and sorrow.

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We would have the divine life, but recoil from fulfilling the conditions. We want the truth but would not reject the untruth in us. We would reach heaven but at the same time live on earth. It is no wonder that, in spite of all our attempts to rise, we remain where we are.

It is Thy grace alone, Mother, that can lift us from these self-contradictions, and establish us in the real truth of our being.

Nothing in the world can cause us any disturbance, unless we ourselves allow us to be disturbed. We forget our true self, we identify ourselves with the lower movements of nature, and so we ceaselessly suffer from disturbances. Truth as well as falsehood are continually coming to us; we are afraid that we may accept the falsehood and reject the truth; we are afraid that in our ignorance, Mother, we may do anything against Thy divine will; we are sorely disturbed if any wrong or false movement takes place in us. By this fear and this disturbance we invite more mischief and sorrow.

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We must have courage, we must remember that as long as we have sincerity, Thy grace will never recede from us. Thou knowest our strength as well as our weakness. We ourselves may misunderstand or misinterpret us, but Thou readest our heart like an open book. We can rest absolutely contented with the sincerity of our surrender ; Thy grace will deliver us from all error, from all falsehood.

Whatever change or movement may take place in our nature, we have to observe it calmly, seated in our immutable self, and continually offer the whole play of our nature to Thee, Mother, to be transformed. The more pure and intense our devotion to Thee, Mother, the more joyful and triumphant becomes the whole process of our transformation.

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HOSTILE FORCES

In my ignorance I think that I am sharply isolated by my body from the Universal outside, that mental and vital movements rise independently within me and belong to myself. But it appears to a closer insight that I constitute only a centre or point, a particular medium or receptacle on which all sorts of mental, vital and physical movements coming from the outside are manifesting themselves. But the object of or Yoga is to surmount these lower movements and allow only the Truth that is descending from above to manifest in us.

Thoughts and desires and impulses constanlty enter into us from the Universal; they come sometimes as fully formed, sometimes as suggestions, as mere exciting or stimulating influences; they come from the human race as well as from beings and forces other than the human; they fill up our whole being with falsehoods and perversions,

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and thus retard the manifestation of the Truth. But they can enter into us only because we keep ourselves open to them, nay, often invite them; our ignorance and egoism, our ambition, vanity, attachment, low desires leave the gates constantly open to all sorts of influences which are the determined enemies of truth.

In order to be free from them we must keep ourselves absolutely clean and pure, always alert to detect their approach, always full of the divine attributes of peace, light, harmony, joy, power, love; and for this we have only to keep our heart and soul always open to Thee in personal devotion, O Mother Divine.

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DIVINITY OF MAN

Thou art so high, so great, Mother, yet so near to me, so much my own! By Thy great love Thou hast awakened me to my own greatness. I am no worm of the earth, mean or low, but I am really a part of Thy divine self, Thy own child, Thy flesh and blood. Let me no more forget my divinity, Mother; it is the forgetfulness of my real self that has been the cause of all my bondage and misery. We cling to the things of the earth; because we do not know our true glory and greatness, our true affinity to Thee, Mother.Henceforth, my sole aim will be to manifest my relation to Thee at every moment, in every detail
of my life.

The consciousness that I am Thy child will enable me to reject everything impure or undivine, to conquer all lower desires and attachments, to rise above all the petty

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joys and sorrows "of the earth; it will feed the flame of my aspiration towards infinite light and
power and joy.

Thy great love will sustain me in that divine consciousness, Mother, and steadily raise
me to Thy divine life.

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INERT PASSIVITY

The inert passivity of our nature is a great obstacle to our progress. The slightest force from the Universal can cause distur-
bance in us, and once our nature is disturbed, it has an obstinate tendency to continue in that state. It is for this reason that forces of falsehood find us ah easy prey, and the light of Truth remains hidden from us.

When our mind is once set in motion by some thought or suggestion, it continues to revolve round it like a mechanical wheel.It returns again and again to its thoughts and conceptions without in the least making any progress in knowledge. So too the vital being is pulled in all directions by the lower pleasures of life, and is easily bound by attachments. ':;The body is at the mercy of the physical forces of Nature, and cannot

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move beyond the habits and instincts, which have been imposed on it. Thus, we go on in our old way wasting our time and energy, moving always but making no progress anywhere.

In Thy wonderful divine way, Mother, Thou hast shown us the way out of this hopeless predicament. Thou hast given us a
life where, protected by Thee from all evil influences, we can easily break away from our old life, and prepare for our speedy
transformation. In Thy grace Thou. hast always kept Thyself before us as the embodiment of light and power and joy; and Thou art always keeping us full of the purest thoughts and feelings and aspirations. It is thus opening ourselves to Thy personal influence, Mother, that we can hope to conquer the obstinacy of our ignorant nature and rise to the glories of the life divine.

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INNER ORGANISATION

The life I live here may appear to be dull, idle and empty from the outside; but n reality it is much more busy, full, and joyous or me than it was ever before in my life.

In the past I was being blindly driven by the forces of Nature, and I ignorantly mistook the hustle of these forces to be my busy life. Now I am realising my own self, observing the forces that play in and around me, refusing to be a mere tool in their hands, sternly rejecting the lower impulses, calmly waiting for whatever comes from Thee, Mother. Every moment I have to be alert, watchful even in my sleep. In the inner organisation of my own self I have much more intensive and interesting work than when I was a helpless slave in the grip of alien forces.

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Thy divine life. By Thy light Thou removest my darkness, by Thy inspiration Thou givest me enlightened work, by Thy love Thou hast made my life a heaven of divine joy.

In fact, life was never more rich, full, and happy for me than what I am living now under Thy grace and direct protection.

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REST AND SILENCE

Give me rest, Mother, give me calm and peaceful rest at Thy feet. I won't any more .go out to play in the world; I am tired

of it, Mother, sorely tired.

How I busy myself in vain and useless efforts pretending that I am doing God's work! I run after name and fame; I strain

every nerve in me to attain it, only to find at last that it is a mere empty bubble that cannot stand a pin-prick. All the time, Thou
smilest, Mother, and allowest Thy child to have his play.

I run after the beautiful and the joyful things in the world, I stake my all to attain them and, lo! they recede at my approach; they completely vanish at my touch, and sore disappointment alone lies in wait for me! All the time, Thou smilest, Mother, Thou allowest Thy child to have his way.

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No more of it, Mother, I have done with it for good. Allow me now to rest peacefully at Thy feet, absolutely unconcerned
about anything that may go on in the world outside. Let me look at Thy beautiful face, let my heart be cheered up by Thy graceful smiles; let me incessantly call Thee "Mother" "Mother" simply for the joy of it.

Allow me to drink deep at the fountain of Thy sweetness; allow me to get strength from Thy strength, light from Thy light,,
life from Thy life. Then Thou mayest send me to do Thy work in the world. Till then,.
Mother, allow me to have peaceful rest at Thy feet, and in silence grow into Thy divine life.

What a relief it is to be freed from the restless activity of the mind and the body, and to fall into the stillness of the soul!
But all my efforts in this direction have failed again and again. The more I try to still my mind and stop the incessant formations of thoughts and ideas, the more they enter into me and occupy the mind. I try to throw away. the movements coming

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from the universal Prakriti, but they again and again push into me with irresistible force.

I am tired of these restless movements, Mother, and do not know how to get rid of them permanently. I now place my head at Thy feet, Mother, and open myself to Thee, so that Thy deep silence may more and
more descend into me. Let Thy silence fall on my thoughts and emotions, on my cravings and desires; let peace descend on my perturbed soul and a deep calm reign all over my being. In that silence Thou wilt descend into me, Mother, and establish Thy rule of ananda in every part of my being.

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CONQUEST OF DESIRES

I shall not ask, for anything from Thee, Mother; I shall only sit at Thy feet looking up to Thy face. Whatever Thou wilt give me in Thy grace, I shall bow down and accept. I know Thou art the queen of queens, and canst fill me with riches, which will be the envy of the gods. But the more I desire them, the more I limit my possibilities. I have taken a deathless determination to root out all my desires, so that Thou mayest fill me with joy in Thy own way.

I know Thou art the mightiest power in the universe, and canst make me more powerful even than the gods. But the more I fret and make efforts with my will, the more I fail and limit my capacity. I have resolved to quiet my will and effort, Mother, so that Thou mayest work out in Thy own way Thy all-conquering will through me.

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I know Thou art the Truth itself, and canst give me wisdom beyond the ken of gods; but the more I try to know by the effort of my mind and reason, the more I blind myself to truth. I have resolved to make my mind quiet and passive, so that Thou mayest fill me with Thy light in Thy own way.

I have resolved to remove all obstacles, so that Thou mayest have Thy own way in me. I shall ask for nothing, I shall only sit at Thy feet, Mother, looking up to Thy face.

The world assumes an entirely fresh aspect, every thing and every event become full of beauty and of joy, if only we can get rid of our desires, if we can transcend our egoism.

We hanker blindly after the limited joys of the world, our senses are continually rushing out to seize and enjoy their objects, and thus is disturbed the tranquility of the soul, which is the true foundation of all delight. By our egoism we cut ourselves off from the Truth; falsely we centre our existence round a narrow conception of the self; hence arise division and conflict, hence we suffer from wrath and fear,

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from rivalry and jealousy; hence we suffer from the pangs of loss and separation.

Let me fully grasp the truth, Mother, that my limited ego is not my true self; let me be continually identified with the one Self of all, and be established in its eternal, immutable peace. Let me realise that this life of desire is not my real nature, that I am Thy true child, Divine Mother, and that my life is a part of Thy divine play on the earth. Then the whole world will change its aspect and will be eternally full of great beauty and intense delight for me.

My desires and passions are constantly pointing out the way to me, hence I err at every step. It is my earnest aspiration to be guided solely by Thy light and Thy voice, Mother, but the impurities in me would not allow me to do so. I have in me all sorts of ideas about duty and fixed habits of work. Various considerations rise in me whenever I want to do or undo anything. It is no wonder I constantly get confused and accept falsehood as truth.

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There is one simple rule which can save me from all trouble .and anxiety, can protect me from all errors and disasters, and that is to follow Thee and Thee only, Mother. But my ever recurring egoism would not allow me to do so.

Thou hast shown the surest way to conquer .all my desire and egoism; I have only to turn towards Thee always and keep myself full of Thy love. No pleasure arising from the pursuit of selfish habits and egoistic desires can ever compare with the great joy of sincere love and devotion to Thee, Mother. Yet such is my weakness and ignorance that I turn away from Thee and pursue my ego; I turn away from gold which is within my easy reach and involve myself in misery in the mad pursuit of dross.

Draw me more and more to Thyself, Mother; one who has tasted the great joy of Thy love can never live apart and away from Thee. Always keep me full of Thyself so that I may fully get rid of my impurities and grow into Thy divine nature and Thy divine life,

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TEMPTATIONS

All the beautiful things in the world conspire to make us renegades. The universe is full of the joy for which our soul hankers, but we do not know the true way of satisfaction. We are irresistibly drawn by anything that offers us joy, but through ignorance we fall into traps laid for us by Nature; instead of the true joy we seek, we bring endless misery and
suffering on ourselves.

We have a fundamental craving in us for work, for the expression of our nature through the right and the good ; but we do not know the true way of work, and taking our desires as our guide we fall into inexorable bondage.

Our soul thirsts for knowledge, but we do not know the true way of attaining the truth, and indulging in incessant restless mental activity keep ourselves enveloped in darkness.

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Our search for the Beautiful and the Good and the True must be made through Thee, Mother. Thou embodies! in Thyself all the true movements in the universe. We must sternly reject all the temptings of falsehood and constantly turn to Thee and Thee alone for the satisfaction of the truest needs of our soul. For me, let there be no world, no existence except in and through Thee, Mother Divine.

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RELATION WITH THE WORLD

My relation to the world shall be determined through Thee, Mother; only then I shall find my true place, my true function in
the world. The relations established through my ego have turned out to be my bondage; by surrendering my egoism completely to Thee, Mother, I shall find out my complete freedom.

The apparently independent life we live is really a subjection to the forces of Nature.We think that we depend on our own mind and will and the senses, but it is really Nature that uses these instruments to have her own way with us. Only by substituting Thy rule for this lower play in us, Mother, we shall find out our true life.

The Universe is full of joy, the possibilities of life are infinite; but through our ignorance we remain cut off -from them; our senses

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bewilder us, and we live a life of limitations, full of misery and pain. We are Thy own children, Mother, and the joys in the world, all the power and the light, belong to us as our true heritage. By recognising Thee to be our own, we shall make the whole world our own, and enjoy Thy glorious kingdom, Mother, instead of living there as slaves and bondsmen.

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TRUTH CONSCIOUSNESS

Seldom do we commit a wrong or a mistake without getting a timely warning, however vague or weak, from within ourselves. This shows that the truth consciousness is within us, though we may not be sufficiently open or responsive to it.

Our whole existence is supported by the truth consciousness; we live, move, and have our being in it; all our joy and light and power are derived from it; but through our imperfections and limitations the truth is perverted in us, and the light is obscured; so we live a life which is a curious mixture of truth and falsehood, of joy and sorrow, of strength and weakness. To remove all the obstacles to the expression of truth, and to live in the purity of the truth consciousness,
which is our true essential nature—that is the object of our sadhana.

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A great obstacle to the manifestation of truth in us is the inertia of our physical nature. There is a tendency in us to move on with the force that is pushing us, and also an unwillingness to move or change, unless compelled by the force of circumstances. It is on account of this dark sluggishness and inertia of our nature that we cannot clearly grasp the light that is constantly streaming into us, nor move or act promptly in response to it. But there is also the intelligent will in us, by exercising which we can overcome this inertia, and keep ourselves calm, free, and alert, so that the truth from above may freely work in us, and bring about our transformation. Awaken and strengthen this will in us, Mother, so that we can make ourselves a perfect expression of the truth consciousness.

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SELF-KNOWLEDGE

Our real life is within our own self; the external is only a reflection, only a manifestation. We regard this reflection as the real thing, hence we live in perpetual falsehood.

The source of all true joy is the self; the senses and the external objects are only a means, an occasion for the manifestation of the inner delight; but in our ignorance we turn outward and follow the senses in vain search of joy.

The source of all true knowledge is the self; the mind cannot know but can only reflect the light that comes from within; yet we ceaselessly exercise our mind in search of the truth and thus live in shadow and ignorance.

The source of all true strength is the self; our body and mind are only channels for the manifestation of the inner force; yet we rely on our bodily and mental efforts for

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our work and thus waste our life in vain and fruitless labour.

Thou art our true self, Mother, and our true relation to Thee is in the heart of our heart. We lay too much stress on our external relations, and hence we miss the secret of our union with Thee. If we can perfect our inner relation to Thee, Mother, our external life will spontaneously become perfect, harmonious, and beautiful.

We are the real masters of our nature, and the more we realise this truth, the more the lower movements cease in us, giving place to the higher.

Nature binds us in her meshes only because we allow ourselves to be bound. We take
interest in the lower movements of Nature, so they go on indefinitely. The more we yield to her promptings, the more inextricably she lays her hold upon us and uses us as her bond-slaves.But the moment we take a strong attitude, Nature begins to throw away her mask and accept us as her master.
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SONGS FROM THE SOUL

There is no temptation Nature can bring before us which we cannot resist by a strong will; there is no pain or sorrow which we cannot bear; there is no disturbance in which we cannot keep ourselves calm; there is no situation, however hopeless or bad, out of which we cannot raise ourselves by a strong determination. Infinite and indomitable strength is in our self; we have only to realise it, and Nature will cease to trouble us and will yield to us her richest treasures.

We take refuge in Thee, Mother, so that we may know our true self and realise our true strength. The more we devote ourselves to Thee, the more we find Thee to be our own higher self, we get strength from Thy strength, life from Thy life. The moment of our complete identification with Thee, Mother, will be the moment of our highest conquest and self realisation.

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OPENNESS

Light is there all around^ us; we live, move and have our being in light. Whatever is necessary for us to know, we can know at all times, if only we are sufficiently open to receive it. But our mechanical thoughts and notions hide the light from us; our doubts and misgivings prevent us from accepting the truth when it comes. Thus, we pass our life in darkness and ignorance.

Power is there all around us; it supports our life, our movements, our efforts. Whatever power and strength is required for the work before us, we can get at all times, if only we are sufficiently open and receptive. But our inert passivity or egoistic restlessness cuts us off from the source of all power. Thus, we pass our life in weakness and failure.

Joy is there all around us; the foundation of the whole world play is infinite joy, and our life is a progressive manifestation of it.

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We have only to open ourselves, and there will be no limit to our joy and bliss. But we limit and bound ourselves by ignorant desires, and attachments. Thus; we pass our life in thirst and misery.

Thou art there always by our side, always within us, Mother; all greatness, all glory is Thine. We can have the fullest share of light and power and joy, if only we can sufficiently open ourselves to Thee.

I am emptying my heart and soul, Mother, so that Thou mayest fill me with Thy own self. Come to me in Thy fullness, come as light, come as power, come as joy.

Descend into me as light, dispel all darkness. from me, fill me with the knowledge of truth; give me the insight by which I can always discriminate between truth and falsehood.

Come as power in the form of divine impulses, give me the strength to reject sternly all suggestions of falsehood, give me the power

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to execute only Thy will perfectly on the earth.

Come as joy filling my heart with love and teauty. In all the sweetest sight and sounds on the earth, let me recognise the expressions of Thy divine beauty.

That is how I shall recognise Thee everywhere, Mother, as light, as power, as pure and perfect joy; I shall persistently make myself free from all darkness and perversions, so that Thou mayest fill me with Thy own self, Divine Mother.

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EGOISM

It is curious how egoism mixes up with our surrender even when it is apparently honest and sincere. At one time we bow with our heart and soul to the Divine, at other times we follow our own way ; even at the same time, some part in us surrenders, while other parts hold back. The test is the lack of peace and equanimity, for where there is real surrender these things cannot exist.

We depend on the Divine, but also count upon our own powers; as the saying goes, we trust in God, but keep our powder dry. As if our surrender is to get as much as possible from the Divine, and use it for our own purpose in our own way. It is this want of sincerity and completeness in our surrender that is a great obstacle to the working of the divine Power in us.

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Let this falsehood and duplicity completely disappear from me, Mother; let me turn always towards Thee, let me be free from all egoism, all initiative, all desire; let this earnest prayer ceaselessly rise up from my soul;—

Descend into me, Mother, in all Thy divine glory; seize my mind and fill it with Thy light; seize my will and make it an instrument of Thy work; seize my whole being and make it a perfect vehicle of the great joy of divine love.

We really lose nothing by losing our egoistic personality in the one immutable Self of all existence. Through the ego we ignorantly confine ourselves to a limited portion of the world; by transcending the ego we go beyond this limitation and realise the whole world to be our own.

Then we have not to feel the pang of separation from our near and dear ones, because we find them within our own self, and beings in the world become equally near and dear to us. We cease to be troubled by ideas of

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obligations and duty, as we realise that we are not the real doers, but it is Nature really which carries out all our actions. The
joys and sorrows of the world do no longer affect us, as we perceive them to be passing movements in the universal play. Realising our true self to be infinite and perfect, we rise above all limited desires and attachments. By losing our ego we lose only our bondage and limitation.

Yet we do not cease to have individual personality. Through our individual nature, we enter into a relation of love and devotion to Thee, Mother, and find our nature to be a part of Thyself, a vehicle of the manifestation of Thy divine play which Thou art unfolding for the pleasure of Thy Lord. By merging our lower self in the higher and identifying our individual nature with Thee, Mother, we grow into our real divine personality.

There is no other way of getting out of the miseries of the egoistic life, Mother, than by completely identifying myself with Thee.

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As long as the ego is the centre of our life, we ceaselessly move found it, bound by
our ignorant attachments, impelled by our blind desires; no real progress, no transformation is at all possible under these conditions of darkness and falsehood. But all the limitations and imperfections of the lower life are at once ended when we are able to merge ourselves completely in Thee, Mother,

Then Thou becomest the centre of our life instead of the ego; Thy will take the place of our desires ; thy truth replaces the limited light of our reason; and all our sensuous hankerings and egoistic cravings are merged in the great delight of an intimate touch and integral union with Thee. And this is the real truth of our life. We are made out of Thy stuff, we are a spark out of Thy fire ; all separation from Thee is a falsehood and the real cause of misery.

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me. As the river falling into the sea at once transcends its limitations and becomes great and infinite with the sea itself, so let my human life fall into Thee, Mother, and become great and glorious in Thy divine life and Thy divine consciousness.

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JIVA, THE INDIVIDUAL SOUL

Every individual is an infinity in himself, a concealed godhead, an eternal portion of the supreme Divine. Every jiva represents a particular phase, a particular mode of the cosmic play, and in and through every one the divine Mother is unfolding the infinite universe for the enjoyment of her Lord. Every one has his own place in the scheme of the universe, and no one can substitute or replace another or manifest possibilities other than what belong specially to him. And the relation of the Mother to every one is determined by his own special nature, his own special dharma.

It is through ignorance of this fundamental truth of our existence that we egoistically seek to possess what does not belong to us. Following ignorant desires, we limit our own possibilities and come into conflict with those of others. When we shall realise the truth of our

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being and our true relation with the Mother, all conflicts, all discords will disappear, and our life will become a progressive harmonious self fulfilment according to our own nature, and thus through us will be manifested the glories of the Divine on earth. Established in the truth of our being, we shall realise that we are really a part and parcel of the divine Mother, and that all individuals are really her own self in so many forms and in so many ways approaching and uniting with her divine Lord and Beloved.

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MYSTERY OF LIFE

It is a mistake deep-rooted in our nature to suppose that our consciousness will be empty and blank, if we give up thought and reasoning; that our heart will become dried up and hard, if we forego the sensuous joys and the egoistic emotions; that our life will be idle and barren, if we cease to follow our desires and exercise our will. Thus, we tenaciously cling to our old ways and modes of life, and the Divine, does not get any scope to manifest in us.

But the truth is that the more we give up these egoistic ways and habits, the more will the divine Power take up these function in us and make our life infinitely more rich, more luminous, more active and joyful.

Again, it is a great mistake to think that if we surrender our egoism, we shall lose our individual existence, we shall virtu-

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ally cease to exist as independent living forces, and shall become only a mechanical tool, an inert automaton in the hands of an alien power, however great or divine that power may be. Thus, we obstinately cling to our ego, and the higher life gets no chance to develop in us.

But the truth is that by real surrender we do not cease to be individuals, but become subtly identified with the Supreme Divine; the divine will becomes our will, the divine way becomes our way. The Divine works in us through our individual nature developing its deepest .possibilities. We become one with the divine Mother, yet perfectly our own selves. This is the supreme mystery of existence.

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MAHAKALI

Come to me, Mother, in Thy warrior mood, come with Thy divine impetuosity shaking all the worlds by the tramping of Thy feet; fill my heart with Thy terrible beauty and awful grandeur. Thy fiery radiant eyes will dispel all darkness from my soul, Thy stern exacting voice will rouse me from lethargy and slumber, Thy thrilling touch will give me indomitable spirit and
force to conquer.

Indeed I have need of Thee, Mother Mahakali, my kingdom is besieged by the asuras and demons, who are relentless in their attacks on me. How long Thy child shall live under their sway? How long shall I allow my temple to be defiled by those forces of darkness and falsehood ? At my present rate of progress, I shall never be able to rid me of their evil influence completely. With my unaided strength, I shall never be able to conquer them finally.

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Come then, Mother, with Thy mighty violence smashing all obstacles in me, snapping all the chords of desire and attachment that still give a foothold in me to the Asuras and Rakshas, breaking relentlessly all that is impure, malignant or undivine in me, so that out of their ruins may be built up a glorious structure of divine strength and beauty, where Thou, Mother, in all Thy grace and power wilt live for ever and for ever.

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A VISION

What a glorious vision Thou hast shown to me, Mother! As I remember it, a thrill of joy passes through my whole system.

But it was so short! It was like the glorious dawn this morning when the earth and the sea and the sky vied with each other to produce a soft shyama colour tinged with gold all over Nature. The sun appeared in its splendour for a moment, and then was hid deep behind the clouds. The rays are still lingering in my heart, but, alas! the glorious sun has disappeared.

Thou hast only infinitely increased the thirst in the heart, the longing for the divine vision. Remove the clouds from me, Mother, for good; let me see Thee by the side of Thy Divine Beloved for ever within my heart; let me see and recognise and share in Thy play of love in every object, in every event in
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the world, so that the glorious vision may last for ever, and I may never have to suffer from separation.

Give me some of Thy love, Mother, by which Thou hast secured the Divine Beloved for ever by Thy side; if only I could identify myself completely with Thee ! A stream of delight is flowing through all my veins, Mother; what a glorious vision Thou hast shown to me to-day! What a joy!

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