A Seeker's Journal

New Year....New Decade.

Friday, January 1, 2021

A visit to the Samadhi.
A pulsation of the word VICTORY....VICTORY....VICTORY.

Sunday, January 3, 2021

Sri Aurobindo's aphorism resounds-

"Have done with vain and pleasant imaginations, open the eyes and see what the world really is...This world was built by Death....This world was built by Cruelty.."

Monday, January 11, 2021

I don't know if the RAGE I have is right or useful or appropriate- I just know that I CANNOT exist without it.
I still hope to turn it into a truer and higher vibration which is able to rise above its absolute impotency and actually change things.

Monday, February 1, 2021

We are trapped in a mad delirium called life.

An unflinching gaze at the falsehood of each passing second can make a burning hole in the futility of each passing hour.

Keep looking- Keep banging- Keep calling.

SOMETHING WILL HAPPEN.

It takes some amount to courage and endurance to look at that frightening 'this is not life' moment in the eye and

HOLD that gaze without seeking solace in some other activity which at least makes you forget the absurdity and tragedy of it all.

15th Feb

Friday, February 19, 2021

That moment when HORROR explodes in spurts....

Friday, February 19, 2021

( Following a visit to the Ashram and Auroville)

Appalling to see cowardice and betrayal flaunted as if a virtue.
Humanity, at its highest, is more disgusting than at its lowest.

The men who I thought would bear the mantle
Have made peace with the adversary-
What sublime irony that the one who insists on a fight
Has neither the ability nor the strength or the courage-
Nothing except audacity.

Saturday, February 27, 2021

The fibres of my rather mad and desperate faith is made of nothing except this certitude that YOU wanted to complete this work.
Otherwise, I too could have concurred with the wise men and let matters rest there.

Agenda.

Monday, March 22, 2021

La douleur est l'essence même du mensonge.

Pain is the very essence of falsehood.

Wednesday, March 24, 2021

They will kill you with their goodwill.

This is an absolutely lonely fight. No one can help you- the least - your loved ones.

To belong only to You. You and You alone.

It is done.

Saturday, April 10, 2021

Victory? It is done. Now only some formalities remain.
- De Gaulle

A.E

Tuesday, April 13, 2021

“The slayer and the slain may be
Knit in secret harmony.”

Indeed. Barbie and Max.

Wednesday, April 28, 2021

“We must come out of the HUMAN calamity.
For there is no other calamity.” - S.

Thursday, May 20, 2021

The time has come for a clear stand.

Thursday, May 20, 2021

Give me liberty or give me death- said so the heroes of the past.

Transformation or decomposition- the present motto.

Some war cries are eternal.

Malraux

Saturday, June 5, 2021

Human life begins at the far end of despair.

Lenin and Buddha

Monday, June 7, 2021

I understand Lenin

I understand Buddha.

And hold a smile and a tear for each of them.

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ALL paths.....all approaches ....will ultimately meet the same ENEMY at the end. The same IMPOSSIBILITY.
Nobody escapes that fatal stink of degradation.
An indulgent, compassionate smile watches over all the diverse paths clamouring for futile legitimacy ....to CONQUER in the end is the only thing that matters.

And that is the victory never won as yet…..no matter which side and whatever type you are….

Monday, June 14, 2021

This gnawing feeling of betraying your destiny with each breath.

Sunday, June 20, 2021

Thinking about 17th November, 1973.
Either it was a betrayal- then the only thing left is to REVERSE the defeat and struggle for victory.
Or it was not- then continue to live the life we live and die the death we die.
In any case, these is no longer any room for vain discussions or accusations.

Act or keep quiet.

Monday, June 28, 2021

The profaning touch of the mind....

How I aspire to conquer this!

Saturday, July 3, 2021

It's not just Nirvana, horror- absolute HORROR too can be transcendental.
You can 'shoot off' from below too.
But emerge into what?.......

Friday, July 16, 2021

It is not by 'cultivating immunity' that this human nightmare will end.

Saturday, July 17, 2021

The 'new world' that you are seeking in spiritual circuses
Will someday need its warrior and hero
For when was the cruel laws of the battle
Ever revoked by human foolery.

Revolution is sublime..

Tuesday, July 20, 2021

The head of the king- was the Divine
And so was the bloody guillotine.

“For a nation to love liberty, it is sufficient that she knows it; and to be free, it is sufficient that she wills it.”

Friday, July 23, 2021

An aspiration to purify our revolt.

Friday, July 23, 2021

(Ref- This new trend of workshops on Agenda, physical transformation, healing etc)

Man wants to do the 'yoga of the cells' with his mind.

Such comedy!

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An American admirer once asked Braque how he explained the fact that the public, which at first had not understood one iota of Cubism—or liked it, either—had grasped enough of it within a decade to enjoy it, and even make it popular.

He replied:

“They never comprehended. They endured. That is the history of modern art.”

And that is the history of the Mother’s Agenda!

Tuesday, July 27, 2021

Art- in its highest and most sublime form is a REVOLT- against being small, being petty, being ugly, being HUMAN.

Sometimes this protest almost has that familiar revolutionary power behind it- that WILL to no longer tolerate the tyranny of our human condition.

Sunday, August 15, 2021

No misfortune scares me as much as losing the flame raging in my heart. That will to FIGHT.

To be worthy of Thee.

Wednesday, August 25, 2021

Everything in the world finds its unity in its futility. Each endeavour of men, nations, civilisations....
A vast, all pervading FUTILITY.

The inescapable Fatality.

Saturday, October 2, 2021

The whole world tries to dissuade yet I remain firmly with Satprem.
For I am yet to see any greater display of heroism by any man.

Saturday, October 30, 2021

The physical horror HUMBLES you like nothing else.

Every virtue fades away as if they never existed....

Sunday, November 7, 2021

Everything in man's history seems to me to belong to an obscure past except MEN WHO FIGHT.
For they will be rendered redundant only after Victory.

What gratitude I feel to be given the privilege of having my constellation of dead brothers with me.

Sunday, November 14, 2021

To fight and win- that is our raison d'être.

We have nothing else to do one earth. NOTHING ELSE.

Our insincerity makes us forget this at the most crucial hours.

Tuesday, November 16, 2021

The human wound reopens. Almost every year.

Friday, December 3, 2021

Sometimes you find yourself on the verge of insanity.
A complete breakdown of a species is not easy to endure.

Saturday, December 4, 2021

A thirst for battle...

Tragedy and Comedy of the world

Sunday, December 12, 2021

A revolutionary without a Revolution in sight.

A Revolution without a revolutionary in sight.

Sunday, December 19, 2021

30 years.....to die to a certain kind of life.