This is a selection from the private journal of a seeker of the New World. These reflections are interspersed with quotes from Sri Aurobindo & The Mother.
Yoga in 21st Century
THEME/S
Wednesday, January 1, 2025
“O Fire; O god, come with the gods glowing in the beauty of thy splendour.Let not the evil mind of the mortal besiege us....achieve the lasting conquest of Light.Protect us....from mortal sickness of our life…”
The Rishis really knew the root of the problem and aspired for the real thing.Sri Aurobindo came to remind us of the audacity of their ancient aspiration....when spirituality was a heroic endeavour.How did we forget this in the following centuries and seekers of truth learned to compromise so comfortably with falsehood.
My galaxy of dead brothers.....they are very much still alive in me.
When I am told by the elf within me that with my audacity I am going to end up badly....they only smile.They know a thing or two about 'ending up badly'.
Will I ever know what I owe to you.
Tuesday, January 7, 2025
Satprem is Her merciless beacon....the one that can forge a new way of being.Our resistance to him is in proportion to the falsehood in us.
Wednesday, January 8, 2025
You need a NEW CONSCIOUSNESS now.Everything human has been acquired.
True for me and France.
Saturday, January 11, 2025
I am made only for Thee.
Even if I forget this sometimes.
Sunday, January 19, 2025
Mental man only wants tricks.Even when it approaches the highest....it looks for a technique...a method...a short-cut.Anything but the effort to BECOME TRUE.
Saturday, January 25, 2025
There is a state of consciousness where EVERYTHING is True....it is only in the mental consciousness where contradictions arise.This seems to be my recurring discovery.
Sunday, January 26, 2025
To gallop with Sri Aurobindo forever....
Monday, January 27, 2025
To feel You on earth is to feel you very differently, O Lord.Maybe that's why we concede to come down.
To wake up every morning and to just GIVE one’s self- that is the true movement for earth and for man.
Thursday, January 30, 2025
There is a mode of reflection which belongs to the old consciousness. It is the mind wrapping on itself and creating a thick veil that then blocks the current. The 'chewing mechanism' belongs to the old species.The new consciousness is felt as a Force that runs forward like a stream gushing forth. You have to be in the flow and throw all the mud in it too.
Friday, January 31, 2025
The new consciousness rests upon things without attacking it.
Mental consciousness is so aggressive.
Sunday, February 9, 2025
Have the courage to choose the Truth....the straight consciousness...RITAM.THAT...where the stick does not bend.
Wednesday, February 12, 2025
Man will end just as he lives- shrieking.
It is not with grace and dignity that this species will finish off.
There is a real falsehood and a phantom falsehood.Know and Fight correctly.
Friday, February 14, 2025
You have to melt.
That is the only true movement after a certain point.
Friday, March 7, 2025
Man is a strange creature.He cannot believe that all that he has cried and prayed for...all his anguish that his art and song embodied for millenniums.......can actually be true.He cannot bring himself to believe that IT IS POSSIBLE.He has been kneaded and woven by a fibre of misery that shrinks at the prospect of not being miserable anymore.
After all the bravery that he has shown in such terrible centuries.....he perhaps needs to show only one bravado ...the audacity of JOY.
Tuesday, March 11, 2025
Take refuge in the Name-Sri Aurobindo The sole Breath not made of Death.
The True Consciousness approaches the world with folded hands. An instinctive adoration and true humility.Mental egoistic consciousness is inherently aggressive....just like an animal pounces on its prey....the mind always claws at everything that is presented to it- to devour.That is the principle of this false life lived with a false mind.
Thursday, March 13, 2025
The vast, all pervasive terrestrial falsehood is perceived, lived, supported and nourished by this false human consciousness.
It is really a World Wide Web of Untruth.
Friday, March 14, 2025
When you go down below - you encounter this way of being that feels no suffering because it has no aspiration or need for joy and light and Ananda. It is INERT. A resigned slave that is drugged into servitude...You then marvel at the mental and vital beings....who turned the World upside down in quest of liberty and beauty.
This being doesn't feel anything--- except that it is condemned and it will carry out its sentence with a stoic fortitude. It is touching...it revolts neither against God nor the devil...
But in its higher parts....it appears closer to the True consciousness....it is focussed...dignified...realistic....determined to do the Work...without fuss.
Saturday, March 15, 2025
Beware O HumanityFor That cancels you out.
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It is He and SheWithout the Me.
The True Consciousness is a block of Adoration....it is made of it....it vibrates with it....it is an unceasing hymn where it continuously gives itself to That.
The true way of being on earth.
So each time you don't feel yourself living this- Know that you are in Falsehood.
Sunday, March 16, 2025
To reach a point where God can only be found in the mire....wrestling with darkness.That is the delight in this battle...His presence alongside you.
But the downward path is a hero's path.
Friday, March 21, 2025
Slowly freeing the world from my grip...Peace.
Tuesday, April 1, 2025
One has only to flow in That Current that is carrying the world inevitably to its goal....just flow.
In the clouds- Saw a Mother wearing a bonnet carrying a baby in Her arms.
Friday, April 4, 2025
The old world becomes.....INCOMPREHENSIBLE.
Things are dematerialising.
Findings
Sunday, April 6, 2025
There is state of the mind which is immobile because it is stuck in a sea of honey. It cannot move because of the heavy golden liquid around it.
Appreciate the physical inertia. It is much better for the work than the excitable mental or vital states.
The tools of mind and vital are false but it is not now- when they see salvation so near- that you can smother them with the tyranny of the Spirit. They protest- "I have the right to Truth too."So this baggage will have to be carried along till the end.
There is a White Death.Perhaps that's what was the highest spiritual attainment of the past.
It appears that there exists a self existent state of worry and depression .....independent of any external trigger. It just IS. You can totally live a false emotion in detail without a corresponding circumstance to justify it. A mirror image of the self existent Bliss.
There exists a true way of being in matter.
For now, it is perceived as a state of constant surrender.
Tuesday, April 8, 2025
Some radical operation has been performed in the mind....
Wednesday, April 9, 2025
The problems of the old world will not be resolved- they will be unrealised.
A crease-less Consciousness.Where nothing grates.
The True Consciousness has difficulty making contact with this false life.It flows on the borderline without touching it.It sometimes cannot even perceive this falsehood.
Thursday, April 10, 2025
All the old instruments- the mind- the vital- the hypnotised physical-do their work with touching fidelity and sincerity- IT IS THEIR JOB which they have been performing since the time this game began- it was under a cosmic pressure that they were assigned it- and unless they are convinced that their mandate is over - they will persist in the name of that law.Instead of being disgusted with the minds action- observe it well- it rushes in everywhere because it is convinced that it is supposed to protect you from falsehood and error- that is its duty.The old life calls for the old instruments- so no point struggling with them- no point trying to change them while living intact and comfortable in this old world.Only the New Life can make them dissolve.
There is something within that feels an anguish at this division in the world- someday it will surge forth and swallow everything to find that Unity.
The revolutionary in me really cannot bear this anymore- all this duality- it does not even want to condemn anything anymore. It has lost its fangs.
Sunday, April 13, 2025
Sometimes the Power seems so close at hand that one dares to imagine that-One step more, The Lord might commit the sin of Victory.
The nectar of Truth appears on the horizon.You raise yourself to taste it.You assimilate it in Silence.You remain like that.
The manual to True way of being.
Monday, April 14, 2025
We cannot bear the True Consciousness- which is so sovereign....so self existent....so powerful.....and above all.....SO CALM.Even after attaining it- one feels the need to descend into the false mental consciousness to do the Work. For only there you have the anguish...the strife....the struggle....the TENSION....without which you sag.
It's a pathetic state of affairs.....how far we have fallen O Lord....that we cannot bear the truly natural state of Being.
Tuesday, April 15, 2025
Stop crying about not being able to feel Her.....observe the grave fact that the plane in which you are operating doesn't feel any contact with Her.How would you do the work with so much of 'me'.
Wednesday, April 16, 2025
What is God?A Truth that makes you want to be True.
How many lifetimes and revolts does it take to just get this simple thing right!
Go away, You do not come from the Lord.The best way to fight vibrations of falsehood.
Mental thinking is becoming laborious....heavy and grating.
You have to start taking a certain kind of pleasure in the destruction of the human way of being....otherwise you will go wailing from one moment to another.
Feel the Wonder instead....the Hope....the New World.
Friday, April 18, 2025
That blessed state when you are ready to worship the entire world..
Sometimes one feels that if only the Mind was not there...our Consciousness would be falling at the feet of everything....ready to Adore.
Oh crooked humanity and twisted life....unmask yourself so I can adore you....for you are That even when the most false.
The Mother
Saturday, April 19, 2025
“No more personal limits, no more individual action, no longer any separative concentration creating conflict, nothing but a single and infinite Oneness.”
Monday, April 21, 2025
The mind will be swallowed in the immensity of That Consciousness....it is like a mighty fountain which will swallow everything on its way.One glimpse of That....and you will immediately measure the incapacity of the mind....and all it has woven till now ....it is really a pale copy of Truth. But it could not do otherwise....without the mind, even this copy would not be accessible to us.One feels that the entire history of earth and man can be rewritten with this new Consciousness....we have so much to learn and express.
WE KNOW NOTHING. And yet we have deduced so much and made them into laws!
If it had been God's intention to crush this species....He could have done it by the sheer weight of His consciousness.
It is a rather dense block that is sometimes felt.
Tuesday, April 22, 2025
(The aftermath of Pehalgam attack)
Horror is a falsehood.....in each fibre of its being.It has been defeated in principle- hence it seems so unreal.It runs on a legacy version....supported by a false human consciousness.
Oh world...you are spinning wrongly. That's all that is wrong with you.
Friday, April 25, 2025
When a false life comes to a false end, we want a false retribution in order to continue living a false life....which will someday come to a false end.And we do all this with so much of passion, so much of effort....we are so sincere in this falsehood.That my very perception of the world is false....thought no man ever.
Sunday, April 27, 2025
The New world has to ensure that men don't die of joy.That is why it will take centuries.
Monday, April 28, 2025
The first thing you lose is a sense of solidity....at all levels.Man is really lost when the mental structure is disturbed a little....imagine when it disappears. The good and the bad go away together.It is a perilously difficult stage....but with glimpses of a sense of thrill....You really require to make the movement of thrusting yourself forward headlong into That which flows like a clear sparkling white stream....without the 'I'.And then there is no thinking involved.....it is only Consciousness....the next way of being.
You have to look at the world the way the Divine looks at it....that is the only way of surviving this decomposition.
Tuesday, April 29, 2025
You have to visit the old Indian scriptures to relish the delight of the Sovereign....of the Spirit which we pursued with so much sincerity and heroism....what a passionate quest for Being- that is the soul of the entire Indian spirituality.You have to visit it to know the nature of the King.....who is now going to rule the earth and your body.An awe-struck state of adoration.All that glory.....finally in matter.
It is death that leads the crusade against Death for most part after awakening.So a sense of deep disgust....general dissatisfaction....a supreme egoist shrinking fills you up.That rebellion without any sense of Light or Delight....Is Death which laughs.Lead the crusade with Light...Truth....which does not cause perpetual strife and agitation.
You have to ABSOLUTELY LOVE the world in each of its fibre of being before trying to change it. For it is Her all throughout...
How do you overcome the sense of unreality of World events... this feeling that it exists nowhere except in an erroneous perception....which is universal....
The human cognition has to be surrendered to Her....our very ability to perceive and deduce.
Wednesday, April 30, 2025
Pain- at all levels of being is now perceived as a reaction to any falsehood it encounters....the pain of not being THAT.Learn to rejoice....
What is pain?
Consciousness has touched the bars of the prison it will one day smash.
Thursday, May 1, 2025
"Mother, maybe I am not seeing things correctly."Each time the mind goes active.
Saturday, May 3, 2025
Every adversary is a God who has forgotten himself.
The lower you go...the more resistance you meet....the more you are supposed to fold hands and invoke Him - He who has to remember Himself.
No strife ....No hate....to pain.....it is really He.Otherwise All is That cannot be true.
The problem is that sometimes you find the Lord really enjoying Himself in this fall.
There is a state of being which is like a Mantra....The true way of being....where you don't express or hear or recite.....but BE a mantra.The vibration of the next life....physical life which is a mantra.
My life can end here….or it already has.
One cannot imagine the audacity of Her Consciousness.Evolution will not stop even with the SUPRAMENTAL....there will be more and more and higher and higher and truer and truer.
This is my Veda....my moment of direct revelation.For how could such a ignorant human consciousness which is not even perhaps truly a Man think of surpassing two rungs...How does one even live this human comedy after having briefly tasted this state of consciousness...this Supreme Grace which in one sudden moment breaks away the littleness of being this animal.
O man.... not only will you be surpassed but the one replacing you will also not be the final.So just get to work without this vanity of my thoughts... my feelings ...my way.....the magnitude of what is happening on earth is way beyond you.The realm of the infinite is really INFINITE.Eternity is constant progression in That.A dizziness where one needs to just throw ourselves....
You reach a point where you are concerned that even your adversary has so little joy....the villains on earth are also miserable people...You almost wish that they too know PLENITUDE.
Ashram v/s Satprem
There is a way of being that is False....so the action ....the situation....the Sadhaks...their deeds -good and bad don't matter. The WAY OF BEING is false.And there is a way of being that is tending towards the Truth....even if imperfectly.....so all the excesses committed don't matter.
17th November was a knot in the universal consciousness that looks very different now.The thirst for absolute unity abolishes the need for retribution. A possibility for reconciliation?
Don't try to defend a fault O MenThe day the veil comes off even a bitIt will be embarrassing-And when it comes off completelyNo defence will be required anymore.
Aspiration will look very different once Separation is gone.
Just like nourishment will look different when hunger has gone.
Are we going to betray our Lord by looking at things other than Him. This beautiful emotion of the past has to change to-Are we going to betray our Lord by looking at things AS other than Him.
Monday, May 5, 2025
I don't know, O Lord.If you want to live like this animal man you will live...If you want to live like a Superman you will live...
There is nothing for this little creature called 'me' to do except ....allow Your Will.
Just like one doesn't run along with one's playmates without a nod from the elders....I have to get my mind to tell the thoughts that beckon it...."Take permission from my Mother....She who is the Master of this being now."
Thursday, May 8, 2025
All sensations are FALSE....the false alarm bell of Death...
You really feel the need of an incubator....to shield you from this false life and false world that keeps rushing at you relentlessly
---till you learn to love even this poor miserable mask that will no longer bear this separation and what you mistake as aggression is actually an Aspiration.
The fury of the world is actually a longing for Light...but we perceive it incorrectly.And we want to admonish it...for wanting to seek union with the One.
We really perceive the Truth upside down.But does a changed perception change anything in terms of the physical fact?
Friday, May 9, 2025
The consciousness manages to undo the crookedness....: but material facts remain unchanged.
For milleniums we have been undoing things at the wrong plane.
Saturday, May 10, 2025
This persistent feeling that we are reacting wrongly to a massive descent....a marvellous Light....which in our physical consciousness gets translated into a false event corresponding to a false consciousness.
Sunday, May 11, 2025
A massive ego breaking exercise is happening- for man and the world.It's not about the instinctive self preservation mechanism- righteously 'thinking of oneself' - it's being this false thing called 'oneself' which asserts itself against that Light.
O Nations of the world- you would do well to just melt- that's your only Salvation.
You will not 'solve' a knot with the True Consciousness-- for it de-materialises it.
Wednesday, May 14, 2025
Why has this century stopped seeing beautiful dreams...Man staked his life for some of them in the past.No one even pretends to have one now.Because it is really the end of man's dreams.
God's time begins. A real fairytale maybe.
Sunday, May 18, 2025
The new reign is here....but we don't know how to live it.A somnambulist force still holds mankind....and a lower delight too.The God who has forgotten himself and roams about as a beggar....
Monday, May 19, 2025
Forever gaze and cling to an Immensity.....that is the only thing that can swallow your little petty being...
There are some energy conservation laws that apply in Spirituality as well....for there are some movements of consciousness which need a might in terms of horse power and in its absence it falls down limpidly after an attempted flight...
You now understand the Vedic Rishis very well.
The world really tests your optimism....and hope.
Oh my heroic brothers of the dead past- the lower layers of our own being are not revolutionary at all.You cannot imagine the shame, the cowardice that it displays.
When the world forces sound me- may I utter only one vibration- Sri Aurobindo.No more thoughts...not more feelings....no more sensations....the only response to stimuli- Sri Aurobindo.
The only true way of being on earth.
This pigmy triumphant species.....smothers itself under the weight of mechanical monsters....and tightens the web even more.Sheer unreality- the True consciousness will smash it in a blink of the eye.
There are moments when I feel myself to be the heir to a victory and not a struggle ...
This is the post-‘something’ era....and hence you grope in darkness.
Tuesday, May 20, 2025
All the problems of India are an UNREALITY.An unreal complication....an unreal danger....an unreal hostility....an unreal division.
But a false human consciousness created it and is now supporting it....actively conjuring up the falsehood....blaming the past, crying for a solution and relishing this danger at some level.All disasters will come true because of this consciousness. Maybe we will overcome all of it through Grace.But false it will still remain.
Truth. Simplicity. And Faith- the phantoms of Mother India will dissolve.And with it the world's.But no one wants the miracle....Nevertheless- only the TRUE CONSCIOUSNESS can save us.
Wednesday, May 21, 2025
Ego makes it impossible to perceive an historical event correctly. All my past adventures may need a revisit...
Friday, May 23, 2025
The human consciousness has to be unplugged from this nightmare which it finds quite engaging and re-plugged into that New Reality that it cannot find sustained interest in.
Saturday, May 31, 2025
To be conscious only of Thee.Nothing else in the world.
May you grant me this boon, O Mother.
The nightmare of this world already collapses before my eyes.
Sunday, June 1, 2025
Tuhun, tuhun’ (you, you), ‘Naham, naham, naham’ (‘not I, not I, not I’), I am nothing, O Lord. I am the servant; You are the Master,’ it is only then that he is released, he is liberated.
~Sri Ramakrishna.
Wednesday, June 4, 2025
The Lord is pouring His delight on Earth....but the wretchedness of our past can only let out a death wail.A pathetic way of feeling and responding to delight.The darkness oozing out....is actually a prayer.
A merciless flame of white light....the purifying fire is lit.
But it is absolutely non compromising- ruthless in its burning- takes away all the past....all the falsehood.....leaving you naked of everything- what you cherished and what you abhorred.Very difficult.But this is the only passage to Truth- there is none other. No concessions to any fibre of the old world.
This Yoga is like sewage cleaning.Truly new and unsettling.
All old siddhis are helpful in feeling a certain sense of Delight in it- and maintaining some sanity.
Sometimes this task of digging into the human abyss requires a humble worker who believes in the ultimate victory but expects nothing from the present.
Braque went on working to the end- never satisfied, never discouraged - in hope.
Every individualised perception is a falsehood.....everything one perceives as an I.
Thursday, June 5, 2025
The soul at His Feet.Along with all the human falsehood.
A true state of being.To remain like this forever.
The inconscient….this lower swoon...is actually an intense concentration.
It really must be a mirror of Sat-Chit-Ananda in darkness.
It is as self absorbed- as self contained- as self sufficient- with no need of anything else.
We had been doing it wrongly all along by trying to fight it- and break our heads over it.Does one fight the Lord- the Sovereign? You only bow in adoration and invocation with a plea for it to wake up.
Oh Lord- it is really You....all in the world.What a trick you played all these millenniums.....Where is the foe....the adversary?
The Spirit looks at this human condition....this human way of thinking and being....these human laws and slavery with DISDAIN and DISBELIEF.
Who lives like this??!
Sunday, June 8, 2025
This life of false sensations is a cruel game one plays with the Immortal Spirit.And when He begins to wake up- He doesn't find it amusing.Man's life in ignorance has the same dignity as that of a circus monkey who has been hypnotised to dance crazily in response to his master's command. And just as the audience enjoys this performance....cruel forces laugh seeing this hysterical human species bubbling from moment to moment....chasing a false life......laughing ...crying....thinking....a PERPETUAL AGITATION and ending up in a hole out of sheer exhaustion as not for a moment we experienced true rest- true peace...true life.
The appalling horror begins only when one realises that this indignity and torture is inflicted on That.
Friday, June 13, 2025
A golden consciousness which makes everything golden.A sensation that is golden.
Saturday, June 14, 2025
How fiercely nations defend their life which is actually only a long prolonged death.While connecting to That- True life- True beauty..True glory- True Divine- can immediately give us all the security- all the peace- all the Salvation.
There is NO OTHER security other than TRUTH AND THE DIVINE.
Thursday, June 19, 2025
This false life devours you....A constant torture.
Saturday, June 28, 2025
There exists a vast universal WOUND-- it is an all pervasive vibration that wraps each fibre of the earth's existence.....an appalling grief....which has become a sullen and ill tempered knot....this pain of separation from Thee.As if the earth has not forgiven this original sin.Unless this is healed....nothing else will.
Instead of collapsing under its weight, one has to look at it very scientifically...why does it not perceive That.....when it is actually within reach.
Sunday, June 29, 2025
The Spirit has categorically refused to live this little life in a little being called Me.
That my life didn't flee is a surprise for it was quite adamant that IT would exist anywhere but not under my rule.
Remember always- ADORATION- constant and cause less is the only True state of Consciousness- which should form the basis of the whole existence.Everything else- an aberration.
Monday, June 30, 2025
With all this Aspiration of lifetimes you reach a plane which has none.
With all this Heroism of lifetimes you reach a plane which has none.
Facing the reality of our physical inconscient is not for the idealistic ones and nor for dreamers and neither for the faint hearted.
This old human species has to be disarmed .....it has to give up its reign as masters of the earth.
These overbearing, sneering men...what revolution can dethrone them?
Thursday, July 3, 2025
To answer with the RIGHT NOTE....when God approaches in whatever form- this is the secret of harmony.
But we never play this game correctly.
We have to give up our complicity with darkness....
Side with the Divine.
Friday, July 4, 2025
A meditation where you repeat His name and efface yourself.....till only That exists.
A true way of being without which nothing else can be attempted or achieved.
Saturday, July 5, 2025
I have in meMore than one life to fulfil.
Oh my galaxy of dead stars!.
Sunday, July 6, 2025
What a glory it is to be Man.
Wherefore do I sometimes find this chant surging up from within.
The Divine Consciousness- at all levels- is perceived as a vibration of Oneness.
All separation is immediately a fall into this pathetic mortal way of being. The original sin.
The world has to feel THAT in each fibre of its being for it to immediately restore Truth ....from which flows everything else.There is no other solution oh Man!
An annihilation ....so Total.
Monday, July 7, 2025
Spiritually cannot be a form of narcotics.
What is a Consciousness that is so helpless in the face of the world's falsehood.
One needs to silence all our higher faculties to hear deep down the murmur of this false life.
It is a different kind of music .....with a different kind of beat.....but distinct and so hidden for so long.An appalling misery at the very base of existence.
One realises why we needed all the noise of human civilisation to cover that up....you can't survive otherwise.
Oh man! What sickness you hide in your bosom- the one that gnaws and kills you. But so ashamed the first man must have felt when he touched it and so helpless -that he immediately covered it with all the layers Nature offered it..anything to distract......and now it bursts in our face....raw and not healed.
What courage is needed to just look at the bare facts of our human existence.
La France
Wednesday, July 9, 2025
A France.... no longer at the service of men.A France ....no longer at the mercy of men.
C'est le seul avenir Ma douce France.
You are in real trouble my dear old world- the day France wakes up...And she is stirring in her chains....realising the impotence of her old methods.
It is a marvel that the world has never stopped at anything.....no matter how beautiful.....no matter how perfect. It constantly makes and breaks..
Because That is always tending towards Something Else.....
We all want the golden age to come back- without wondering about the need for its disappearance.Why did this story not end there if it indeed was so perfect.
We are already in the post-human era.
Man is no longer around....and we slowly begin to miss his presence.
Till the new Being really takes over- it is a painful phase.
Thursday, July 10, 2025
Can it be possible that when the Lord's promise will be about to be fulfilled the Earth wouldn't know how to receive Thee.
The present circumstances prove it true- this appalling resistance- Man would destroy himself and the earth but not surrender and change.
Recognising the human beast everywhere......in whatever guise.....my capacity for clairvoyance.
Friday, July 11, 2025
A solid mass of concentrated Consciousness hurling itself against a barrier.
Sunday, July 13, 2025
Take refuge in the Lord- see the world with His eyes.....live this life with His breath...because the moment the axis shifts to the little I - you die of despair and misery.The old world is literally decomposing- the stench overwhelms you.How do you survive in this absolute negation unless you cling on to absolute affirmation.
Monday, July 14, 2025
The problem with the world's apparent’spiritual’ progress is that everywhere it's Nature working- her slow, meticulous, all encompassing toil.
Human, too human. FACITIOUS in all its aspects.
Where is the Divine working- that spark which has seized our hearts more than once in the past ages.That miraculous leap...that non-human moment.
One major favour this mental babbling mankind has done is to completely DISCREDIT words...For it is all just false rambling.
(Context- The new age ‘spirituality’ of workshops and talks)
Is it possible that the only visible legacy of such a trailblazing Incarnation is a generation of talkers and preachers—explaining, interpreting, and expounding ad nauseam?
But who knows how mediocre Ayodhya—or Aryavarta—may have become in the century following the Divine's departure?
My Sri Aurobindo and The Mother don’t resemble the world’s. Sometimes I cannot even recognise the Sri Aurobindo and The Mother Their devotees serve, celebrate and interpret.
I don’t know what to do about it- or does anything need to be done about it at all.
Thursday, July 31, 2025
YOGA OF REALITY.
India's ancient quest.
Saturday, August 2, 2025
O France,This I feel -though know not whyI can still give my lifeTo keep you alive.Live France. Live.
Thursday, August 14, 2025
A milky white light golden expanse in the heart Center....... separate personality dissolves.
15th August
To unite with Your Consciousness, my Lord.
Monday, August 18, 2025
The cage is built by a Mind that RECORDS all the falsehood of the world- then chews upon it- then reacts. It repeats this ad infinitum.....falsehood feeding falsehood and throwing up falsehood.
I feel like an assassin of the world- constantly killing it in my mind- and with it all these ghosts of human beings also dissolve out of existence- the good… the bad ...everything....
"But Monsieur, you don't even exist"- is my amazed refrain in front of this hyperactive crazy humanity that appears to rule the world.
Tuesday, August 19, 2025
Where is the Truth of Your World- Oh Lord.
This is the earth's cry surging up from within- this sob of being buried alive.
The process is like removing the skin of man- at all levels- fibre by fibre- for no new being is possible otherwise.
The best is to offer the whole being- like one lies on an operation table- and just gives oneself.
It between- tiny shreds of light call you from the past- all the luminous moments of the earth- all that makes this dungeon breathable......but one has to grit our teeth and remain focused- allowing ALL layers to be peeled. Without exception.New mode of consciousness- means a tearing apart of all thoughts ....feelings....emotions.....sensations...Change of species is not a joke.
Wednesday, August 20, 2025
My mega world fraternity project where I decided to no longer fight the world seems to have failed after a brief trial. (Ref- May 3,2025 reconciliatory note)
You just cannot embrace this human falsehood...this work cannot be done unless one takes an intransigent stance- the ruthless sword is required.
I understand Satprem very well. And the brutality of revolutions.
Maybe one should slay with love, but slain you will have to be O Man.
Manet did not appreciate Cézanne. Degas mocked Monet. Renoir abhorred Picasso. Matisse and Braque never truly understood one another. Yet no one would conclude that any of them failed to understand Art.
The Divine is infinitely vast, and there are many ways of being brilliant. Thus, the conflict between Satprem and the other stalwarts of the Ashram is conceivable and forgivable.
But hard to apply this to our century- even with all my desire for catholicity and broad mindedness. Because-
My Truth need not be yours. But some Truth it has to be!
Thursday, August 21, 2025
A ceaseless contemplation of the Divine- at the exclusion of everything- that is meditation.
Friday, August 22, 2025
" we suffer from the continuous fever of an erroneous life"
Yog Vashistha.
O Man, you had never looked as ugly as you do in this century.Not even when you were a certified brute.
Saturday, August 23, 2025
I have been posted at a quarry I feel- but this dungeon WITH YOU - working alongside You - is still better than a life without You.For after awakening, one knows that this is no ‘life’ we are living.
Sunday, August 24, 2025
The mighty power of OM is unleashed- it gushes forth with distinct Will to CONQUER.
Monday, August 25, 2025
The Master of the House is seen.
This entire life was created only for Thee to inhabit it and rule it.
Along the way we served so many unworthy masters- the tragedy of human existence.
A consciousness that IMPOSES itself on the world- boldly and resolutely.The only solution to this world wide mess.
Otherwise one is crushed under the weight of this world's falsehood.You have to be stronger than what you want to defeat. Stronger in Consciousness.
Understand the web well O ManEven your reactions are a part of the death game.
To give up the crutches of 'human' life- only THAT can achieve it.That- which has always been beyond this life or death.
Somewhere along that path- you have to take a jump into the void- an audacious leap made of a carefree faith and joyous expectation- the ecstasy of leaving this human prison- leaving all this good...bad....high....low....this entire human fabric of life for a New Reign- that of Truth- Pure and Sovereign.
But not easy.
Tuesday, August 26, 2025
You dream impossible dreams in me My Lord.
I have in me something that is not of this world- that is pushing against this inhuman state of being- this life in a prison.And it is INTOLERANT towards this false way of mental being.
The world may find my aggression disconcerting, but only I know how feeble is the flickering flame in my heart that barely escapes being smothered in this dark world.
May Thy splendour rid us of the abject poverty of our lives....this wretchedness of human existence.
This lack of opulence and plenitude....in means ...in aims....in breathing....living ....dying.
This 'imprisoned swiftness' of Life.
You have to attack the world's falsehood at the base. The backroom of earth is where the battle is taking place...
Tuesday, September 2, 2025
Show us the TRUE way to be Man, oh Lord - for we have lost the thread somewhere along the way.
There is a certain IMPOSTURE in mental man- even at its highest - that is disconcerting. There is always a mask.The fundamental twist in human nature that has to be dissolved for Divine nature to manifest- true, spontaneous and simple.
Friday, September 5, 2025
There is a Consciousness that observes this perverted magic of human existence with an aloof disgust.This game of cause and effect- of not just a false manifestation but equally false reaction - the sense of pain and tragedy that man feels is also a twisted drama- a part of this horrible quagmire called human life.And one is condemned to this death and expected to bear it with submission.How is it possible for the Spirit to live this servility without revolting. Where is Thy Life, O Lord?
Tuesday, September 9, 2025
Merge your pathetic little being into the Infinite - and live life from that station above. It will surely look different.
Seek refuge in the Truth.
There is no other way of surviving.
Thursday, September 11, 2025
All illnesses are a cause of a narrow self centred egoistic life.A concentric vibration that turns on itself indefinitely- and worsens it.
EXPAND.
Sunday, September 14, 2025
The new species is made by literally GASPING for the True vibration- that of a NEW LIFE.It really becomes at some point like a fish on sand.
Our entire human life is designed to live anything but the Truth.We spend our lives escaping from facing the truth of our existence. Some pastimes are obviously beautiful- but it is a distraction nevertheless.
Ma, you are burning all the impurities in me- layer by layer- and I am whining about it.Such is the misery of ignorance.
Monday, September 15, 2025
This astounding feeling that there is no sickness of the body- only sickness of the mind.Physical suffering is actually a non-physical phenomenon that is amplified by a shrieking physical mind.It suffers most when it says NO to suffering.
Wednesday, September 17, 2025
Standing before His photo- I saw as if my entire body had been emptied of its substance- a blue outline of body and a light golden muddy filling occupying the space.
So there is nothing inside actually- wonder where does good or ill health come from ...
Friday, September 19, 2025
Oh Lord, there must be a way to perceive You in this world without the mind....A direct true way.
When you are battling in the really lower layers of matter- it is not a way of thinking that can save you- it is a way of BEING.For on that plane- no idealism helps.Truth in matter is exacting.
Saturday, September 20, 2025
I feel like I am fighting unreal phantoms with a lot of solemnity.
That's how it is when you are awakened but still in ignorance.
For Truth is only You- down to the last atom.Then all phantoms vanish.
Sunday, September 21, 2025
When you are invaded by the universal falsehood- you cannot fight it with personal virtue.It is like drowning in an ocean of darkness- you need That- the Supreme Vast to even stand a chance of a battle.
Tuesday, September 23, 2025
Looking within one sees a mass of black darkness and a golden shining center.The perfect representation of the human body.
Wednesday, September 24, 2025
This is the hour of PURITY...
Friday, September 26, 2025
There is a vibration of Revolution in the air....elusive but one finds oneself heaving upwards to drink it.
A constant ceaseless Sacrifice is required....At all levels.Selflessness acquires a new dimension.
This is what the vibration of Mother feels like...
“But precisely, the big lesson of it all is that they are appearances only, and all, ALL is an appearance-they are formidable appearances. There is not one true thing, not one true diagnosis, not one true symptom, not even one true sensation. There is only one Reality, a Divine one, behind all that. Everything else is falsehood: a medical falsehood, a falsehood in your own body, a falsehood in your head, of course, a falsehood at every level, with all kinds of frightening or marvellous appearances, but they are nothing but appearances. Even when it seems that you are going to let drop your body, it is still an appearance.There is but one Reality, a Divine one.And the sole solution is to cling to this Reality, come what may. And to believe in this Reality alone, whatever the appearances may be…..
‘In that perilous transmaterialization of the other thing, all depends on whether the body lets itself be enthralled and hypnotized by the mortal reality that possesses it and resists, or if it affirms, against all odds, the living and only reality of the other thing that invades it.’” - S.
Sunday, September 28, 2025
Some turbaned revolutionary has returned in my life with a saffron robe.
Monday, September 29, 2025
A complete self effacement is required to do this Work.
Not possible with a single trace of personal vibration.
Thursday, October 2, 2025
Had felt Her hands working on me....gently kneading it without actual touching it. But my resistance and disharmony caused a violent jerk that She felt. I was filled with remorse at having caused this injury to those indescribable gentle hands.
Thursday, October 2, 2025 (Visit to Pondicherry)
Lord, may you destroy this cursed Separation this time. The root of all our ignorance.
Tuesday, October 21, 2025
Can't quite express all that Pondicherry has given to me this time....a thrilled amazement at the Divine Life that was glimpsed for a moment in the past and has to conquered in the Future.
It is the effervescence of the Divine delight that bubbles forth in a poem...music....art....and sometimes in a martyr who could find no other way to express his surging joy other than by dying for You.It's really that simple. And really without fuss.
Wednesday, October 22, 2025
Perhaps the sages of the past did not notice that muffled pain in their heart at the threshold of the White Holocaust they were about to jump into.That voice of disappointed hope which murmured to itself in helpless submission- “Cease O Fool- You hoped in vain.”
Monday, October 27, 2025
When That appears in all its Glory- the phantoms will all dissolve....
One must really look at the Beyond with an unwavering gaze and not get distracted by this death which is really just seeking attention- that's how irrelevant it has become.
Saturday, November 1, 2025
The Human imposture cannot be unmasked without the intransigent sword of the Revolutionary.
When one feels the Supreme Omnipotence in your heart call out to That Supreme Omnipotence above- you cannot fathom how all this weak, helpless impotency gets to rule our lives on earth.
Monday, November 3, 2025
Had a dream vision- sensation that a mighty weight of Sri Aurobindo's hand maybe hand landed on earth with a thud.....and the entire weight of my body...had been expunged out of me...
Friday, November 7, 2025
Take Satprem out of this story- and what remains?A million institutes, centers, retreats, workshops and a million self styled integral life coaches.Talk about gobbling up Their names!
Sunday, November 16, 2025
You cannot make this mental species abdicate by a frontal attack.Something in the rear has to be tackled....the backroom of our way of being.
Wednesday, December 3, 2025
Magical evening in the Playground.
The Golden Purusha and the triumphant WILL to conquer.
Friday, December 5, 2025
In a flash of a vision I saw a burnt old square shaped fuse.
Representative of the human mind that one offers to That to replace it with the New Consciousness.
Wednesday, December 10, 2025
A pink hue....a transparent glass lotus....Sri Aurobindo's symbol in the heart....O Supreme Consciousness!
Friday, December 12, 2025
An ALL WHITE concentration on Her symbol in the meditation hall...
Something like a vision
Tuesday, December 16, 2025
An obstacle or a knot that Sri Aurobindo dissolves by touching it with His feet....and a stream gushes forth.
One must storm the Inconscient with the Divine Name.
And then seek absolutely identity with it so all becomes ONE.
That is the only way to avoid being wounded in this ghastly fight.
To die to myself.....my death wish for the birthday.
A certain lack of control over life and yourself ..... strange powerlessness in the face of battle.
The abdication of the human is difficult.
The Divine tugs at the strings that make up this web of falsehood.
Thursday, December 18, 2025
The Divine duels with the human beast in me.
(Evening at the Ashram Playground)
O Supreme Truth...O Supreme Truth…
One breath that is not of Death. -
What an annihilation in the Playground!Dizzy and staggering. The best and worst - all gone.
As if today- NO resistance could withstand Sri Aurobindo's power.May He take my place in me.
Friday, December 19, 2025
When God snatches the last threads of this false old life.....you lose all bearings....for your virtues..your strength..your abilities....your Sadhana.....all of it dissolves in a Void.
An absolute adherence to the New Life is required- even if you have no life left to speak of as yet! -
To not betray the Truth- Consciousness.
Saturday, December 20, 2025
In the librarySaw His feet changing to the feet of Kali with anklets.
Wednesday, December 24, 2025
You live in Sri Aurobindo.What does anything else matter?
Friday, December 26, 2025
What a grave juncture we have reached....no matter what story we tell ourselves- the fact is that earth is no longer inhabited by humans.
Mantra
Tuesday, December 30, 2025
Vijñana Chaitanya
Heard this from within while sitting in the Ashram meditation hall. I don’t even know how to pronounce that word!
This life is meant to attempt the HIGHEST flight possible....
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