Esha's recollections of some episodes of her life, as narrated to Nirodbaran in Bengali, who translated it in English. This is presented here in form of a book.
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Nirodbaran on Esha's story : Esha, the late Dilip Kumar Roy's niece, was a little girl visiting the Ashram when I came to know her through my niece Jyotirmoyee with whom she had become very friendly. She wanted to settle in the Ashram, but her mother did not want it as she was still a minor. When after many years she came to the Ashram again and stayed with Sahana Devi, I became more closely acquainted with her. By that time she had already married and obtained her divorce and had decided to settle here. I came to her help and made all possible arrangements for the purpose. Since then I have come to know her well and listened to her narration of the incidents of her life. As I found them interesting I began to note them down and was thinking of publishing them in Mother India when somehow she got wind of it and strongly objected to it. As I felt I had Sri Aurobindo's sanction for it, I did not listen to her. In spite of my disregarding her objection, luckily she did not stop recounting her saga. Of course she narrated it in Bengali and later I put it down in English as faithfully as I could. When the story began to appear in Mother India, she insisted more than once that I should stop it. My answer was that I believed it could be helpful to many readers and that Sri Aurobindo seemed to support me.
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A third experience happened very recently.
After an incident I was very badly shaken. I had a disagreement with an Ashram lady who had been helping me for some years by providing me with some material necessity of life. Disagreement led to argument to hot words, and, after an unpleasant scene, I refused all further assistance from her. Though I am grateful to her for all her help, I have no regrets in stopping our arrangement. For now I rely on the Lord, as I have done before in times of dire need, for providing me even with small necessities. My prayer was answered when suddenly I saw Sri Krishna with his flute, just as he is portrayed in some pictures, standing behind Sri Aurobindo with his right hand resting on Sri Aurobindo's shoulder. He was all resplendent. Sri Aurobindo said, "Be quiet. Don't get agitated. I shall set everything right. Depend on me entirely."
"I know that and I am sure of it. My previous sense of a helpless being has left me now. Only at times when my foot trouble increases, and gives me pain I become restless."
"That pain will go. There is nothing seriously wrong with the foot. It is due to your flat-foot and excessive pressure on it that causes the pain. But it will be cured. You know that I have cured your chronic stomach trouble which was much more serious. For if it continued it could have turned into cancer. This trouble also I can cure. But if I cured it now something else will crop up. The hostile forces will become more active. Everything has its time and one must learn to bear. Be patient."
"But at times I want to leave the body, and pray to be taken away so that I can live forever in peace."
"You will live in peace, I assure you, and I bless you that you will live in the Divine Peace which you have felt at times. The Divine Peace is something which is beyond any human comprehension and I promise that you will have it."
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