Esha's recollections of some episodes of her life, as narrated to Nirodbaran in Bengali, who translated it in English. This is presented here in form of a book.
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Nirodbaran on Esha's story : Esha, the late Dilip Kumar Roy's niece, was a little girl visiting the Ashram when I came to know her through my niece Jyotirmoyee with whom she had become very friendly. She wanted to settle in the Ashram, but her mother did not want it as she was still a minor. When after many years she came to the Ashram again and stayed with Sahana Devi, I became more closely acquainted with her. By that time she had already married and obtained her divorce and had decided to settle here. I came to her help and made all possible arrangements for the purpose. Since then I have come to know her well and listened to her narration of the incidents of her life. As I found them interesting I began to note them down and was thinking of publishing them in Mother India when somehow she got wind of it and strongly objected to it. As I felt I had Sri Aurobindo's sanction for it, I did not listen to her. In spite of my disregarding her objection, luckily she did not stop recounting her saga. Of course she narrated it in Bengali and later I put it down in English as faithfully as I could. When the story began to appear in Mother India, she insisted more than once that I should stop it. My answer was that I believed it could be helpful to many readers and that Sri Aurobindo seemed to support me.
THEME/S
You remember the picture of Sri Aurobindo on the New Year calendar? I hung it beside the picture of Sri Krishna on my window near the head of my cot. My friends suggested I remove it and place it by the side rather than behind my head, so that I could always see it while lying on the bed. The idea appealed to me. Sri Ramakrishna's picture was already there, and both of them side by side would look well. But to my surprise, whenever I wanted to remove it, I distinctly heard Sri Aurobindo's voice, "No, no! I'm quite comfortable here. Don't remove me!" I was struck dumb.
The other day I was mopping the floor of my room. When I came near this picture, suddenly I felt the Presence of the Lord standing there — a massive powerful Presence. The entire room was filled with the atmosphere of that Presence. My whole being was as if held in a trance before the Presence and the utter ecstasy of it!
Now I shall return to the story of my family life.
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